From the Outside

Everything looks great from the outside
It's amazing what laughter
and smiles can hide

Everything looks great from the outside
It's amazing all the details
you can keep inside

Everything looks great from the outside
It's amazing how mangled truth
never sounds like you've lied

Everything looks great from the outside
It's amazing how your heart
keeps beating even though it's died

Everything looks great from the outside
It's amazing how deftly
the illusion is applied

Everything looks great from the outside
It's amazing what smiles
and laughter can hide

Not what but Who

What's keeping me here?
Is it lack of talent
or could it be too much?
Is it laziness or
trying too hard?
Is it self pity or
self doubt?
Is it someone else or
just me?
What's keeping me here?

The ability to change your destination
isn't left to anyone but you.
The ability to take the first step
towards the right direction
isn't left to anyone but you.
The ability to crash and burn and
then begin again
isn't left to anyone but you.

What's keeping me here?
It's not a what but who.
Who's keeping me here?
The answer to the question
is you.

My reality

Today begins the return to me
of my unique reality
Freedom in its many forms
makes a comeback as my
daily norm

My reality
My life choice
I hear it calling
in its own voice

Looking forward to its return
Taking with me what I have learned
Looking forward to start anew
Looking for ward to what I might do

Today begins the return to me
of my unique reality
Freedom in its many forms
makes a comeback as my
daily norm

We Must Live Not Just Exist

Whirling in the mist
we must live
not just exist.

Making grown up choices
Doing adult deeds.
Life is very delicate
Can we meet our needs?

Whirling in the mist
we must live
not just exist.

Worried for the future
It has to be better than the past.
Have we found our ever after?
Can we make it last?

Whirling in the mist
we must live
not just exist.

Tempted by nostalgia.
Held hostage by fear.
Must make the right decision
The end of  the year is drawing near.

Whirling in the mist
we must live
not just exist.

Can't go on like this forever
Can't keep clinging to what won't last
It's alright to live your own life and
remove yourself from the past.

Whirling in the mist
we must live
not just exist.

Guilt, fear and anger
in their grasps lie the danger
don't let them win your inner war
Turn on the light show them the door.

Whirling in the mist
we must live
not just exist.

Adrift in Limbo

The wind blows

yet I feel no cold

neither do I feel

the heat.

 I am numb to 

its temperature.

I know it exists

because my

clothing shifts in space

but as to hot or cold

I do not feel a trace.

The sun rises;

is it warm upon my face?

I know the heat is there

in every radiant flare.

I know I should

be warm

but my body does not care.

I am here

and it is there.

The moon comes up;

a  soft, silent circle.

Is that the man staring

down at me

or just my sensitivity

to what I wish to perceive?

Moonlight clear and bright

bringing shadows to the night.

I am not filled with fright

nor do I feel delight.

Emotionless seems to be

my current plight.

Awake yet dreaming

constantly teaming

with incessant thoughts.

Asleep yet aware

of that I do not dare

make concrete

within my turbulent thoughts.

Adrift in limbo

my stance

akimbo

I need a symbol

on which to pray.

How do I get to 

where I need to go?

When will my path be
clear I need to know?

How do I get to 

where I need to go?

Time moves quickly

and yet I'm going slow.

How do I get to where I need to go?

Adrift in Limbo.

My stance akimbo.

The door seems closed,

please open a window.

'Round In Circles

Tired of spinning 

'round in circles

for every time

you change your course.

Make up your mind

pick a direction

without me

having to use force.

I've been more

than patient

allowing you

your time.

You've been

running 'round 

in circles

What do you

need to

make up your mind?

I know it's not

my imagination

these hoops

I'm going through.

No one else

would have it 

as easy

as you

certainly do.

Make up your mind

pick a direction

Life is not

made from 

pure perfection.

You don't 

have to

choose 

but 

one direction

but you

do have to choose.

Tired of spinning 

'round in circles

for every time

you change your course.

Make up your mind

pick a direction

without me

having to use force.

You don't 

have to

choose 

but 

one direction

but you

do have to choose.

You don't 

have to

choose 

but 

one direction

so what have you

got to loose?

Unexpected Hours

Unexpected hours in the day,
Do I get some work done
or run around and play?
Do I grab some extra sleep
or enjoy just sitting still?

Time on my hands
without any plans
How do  I satisfy
life's many demands?

Minute by minute
I shall decide
Go with the flow
let all else subside.


Do I get some work done
or run around and play?
Do I grab some extra sleep
or simply sit and stay?
Whatever do I do
with extra hours in my day?

Less Traveled By

Lurking 'round every corner
is an adventure you've yet to take.

Each and every minute
there's a decision you need to make.

The world moves constantly forward
don't get overtaken in it's wake.

Weigh your actions with heart and mind
don't make a move just for moving's sake.

There's more than two roads to follow
consider well which one to take.

Good Morning

I have clothes to wear
I have shoes for my feet
I slept in a warm bed
Woke up to enough to eat
I have some place to be
and eyes with which to see
Luckily for me
I breathe quite normally
Monetarily rich is not my ability
My riches come from friendships and family
If given a choice I would still be me
So it's a good morning
Quite a good morning to be

Beacon in the Night

It's as if a beacon in the night
calls them forth.
Seek her out now
for all it is right in her world.

How do they know to try?
For months I've left you
in she shadows of my mind
but your current happiness was a sign.

Remember ME?
Pay attention over here.
You can't have moved forward
I won't be ignored.

Too let my friends
too late are you
For as I shall inform you
Yes, onward and upward I move.

Seek her out now
for all is right in her world
Remember me?
Yes, and that gives me the strength
to stay on this course.

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Yesterday's me

Yesterday's you

There is nothing we can do

to bring back the people who

we used to be.

Tomorrow's you

Tomorrow's me

There's know telling

who they will be.

Today's me

Today's you

fondly remembers

yesterdays too.

I will never be able to be

my yesterday me nor

do I exactly wish to be

the yesterday today

You will never be able to pursue

Your yesterday you nor

should you 

as who you are today

is so brave and true

Can we be happy with today's

you and me?

Can we stop wishing for 

who they used to be?

Yesterday's me

Yesterday's you

There is nothing we can do

to bring back the people who

we used to be.

Today's you and me

Should gladly wait and see

Tomorrow's you

and

Tomorrow's me

As there's know telling

who they will be.

It Has To Be

It has to be a dream

there's no way this could be real

this state of confusion

I do not wish to feel.

It has to be a trick

Some strange slight of hand

this perplexing predicament

of which I can't command.

It has to be a conspiracy

some puppet master's play

this strange state of events

which gravitate my way.

It has to be a mystery

which hasn't reached it's end

this life long journey

upon which we all depend.

Rocky Road

Taking stock of all we've been.

Letting go of what we've seen.

New avenues opened.

New paths discovered.

A brand new journey

Down a  rocky road.

Crossing over from friendship

to the land of lovers

Will we be strong enough

to hold on to each other?

Many signs

along the way

heed the warnings,

watch what they say.

Caution falling rocks

Slippery when wet

Dangerous Curves

Detour up ahead.

Make it through the obstacles

continue on the road

There's really just no telling

How far and where this will go.

Want vs Need

Is it what I want

or

Is it what I need

How do I tell the difference?

Can you help me please?

Just because it feels good,

Doesn't make it right.

What doesn't work this evening

Might do so another night.

Is it what I want

or

Is it what I need

Make decisions based on heart

Not merely personal greed

You might not get what you want

But usually you get what you need.

How do I tell the difference?

Can you help me please?

The Moment

Live for the moment but remember,

The moment is over in the blink of an eye.

Eternity beckons

What do you spy?

A lifetime of moments

so many lies

to others,

to yourself,

to all that count.

Temptation comes in many forms

to fight, to yield both are the norms.

You know what's right.

You know what's wrong.

To give in to impulses is quite strong.

Giving up what you want on behalf of another

a selfless act towards human sisters and brothers.

Life will continue

Your spirit will renew

the energy it needs to survive.

Temptation strikes

but you're still alive.

Trois Poules Françaises

On the third day of Christmas
My true love gave to me
Three French hens, Two Turtle Doves
And a Partridge in a pear tree.

Birds again?
What is with men;
The same gifts over and over again.

I've mentioned before
but I'll say it once more:
No need for the partridge up in a tree,
No need for turtledoves following me
Nor is there a need for Poules Francaises
today tomorrow or yesterday.

My true love charming you may be
But at gift giving let's face reality.
A personal shopper's not destined for thee.

Please listen and hear
Any more birds and I fear
the feathers will fly
between you and I!

Life Experience to Go

Experience a life

Especially for you.

Remember you are special.

Make every day a celebration.

Keep in touch

with friends, family

fantasy and reality.

Be thankful for the clouds the stars

the wind, the rain,

The moments of joy and 

the bits of pain.

Remember,

We are all mad here. 

Believe in yourself.

You, Me and Jumping with Glee

You had me and you set me free

So excuse me If I don't jump with glee

When you tell me that you miss me.

You traveled the skies to reach me.

Told me my smile set you free.

You hoped that one day we could be

Sailing together across the sea.

Over the miles our relationship grew.

My hopes, heart and dreams I stored in you.

As months passed you asked what I wanted to do.

After my answer, I felt you withdrew.

Our original passion we couldn't renew.

When you said you were leaving I already knew.

It's year's later you're talking to me.

I ask myself, "How could this be?"

You see, you had me

and you set me free.

So excuse me

If I don't jump for glee

When you tell me that you miss me.

Unmentioned

You didn't listen to what I had to say.

Told me I didn't need to ever think that way.

Called me a little girl and told me to go play.

All I could do was shake my head and walk away.

Can't help smiling as it all turned out this way.

Not gonna mention that you thought I was insane.

Not gonna mention how many times you called my name.

Not gonna mention every time you scream in vain.

That I told you so.

I See You

You don't see me,

see you, see her.

You don't see me,

see you, see him.

You don't see me

but I see you.

Oh what you do

When you don't know

Someone sees you

and the whole show.

You don't see me

and I don't see you;

You seeing me

Seeing someone too.